I couldn’t cry. I mean look at my makeup. All that hard work to see my RIDE OR DIE. Was I wrong in taking my opportunity in seeing her; it’s HER. The girl I haven’t spent one night with since 2010. My diary/ my confidant/ my bestfriend. The person who knows me the best. So again was I wrong for picking her over my lover/ my love/ my Daddy ;* / My first. I spend every time I get to spend with her. We live in the same city, we go to the same school, she has my voice and heart locked up at night. She’s the one who gets the most time with me. & what does she tell me… Go be with my best friend! Was I wrong? Or was I only being fair and reactional. I’m not 25 ready to settle down, I’m 17. Was I wrong? I have my whole life to spend with her, but she wants every second RIGHT NOW to be with her. No one else. I love my best friend and I love HER (my love). I need the both of them in my life. I wasn’t going to lie to niether one of them. That’s in my old life, I’m trying to start a new love/peaceful/honest life. And for my new life that I wanted I lost my love. I don’t know if it’s temporaoily or forever, but my heart has broken. My tears fell a few times but not crying [as what I would do] has kept my head and heart from falling apart. I still love HER. No but’s.